Beginning To Figure Out

Why my efforts to move keep getting thwarted. There’s a long version, and a more condensed I will try for this morning. In short, I think I was looking to move at least in part for the wrong reasons.

In part, I was looking for an alone place, a place to finish up various projects then see what life had in store for me. To put off things like the shoulders for a while longer. The old lone wolf off happily in his remote lair.

Fact is, I both can’t put off some of it any longer, and I need to be around people. I need the interaction (at least to some extent as it is easy for my introverted self to get overwhelmed), I need help on occasion, and I need to be able to help.

I’ve been getting smacked on the nose and muzzle a bit about accepting help here recently, and about the need to be around people. And a couple of reminders that I still have a few things to offer as well. So, it’s less about the where and more about the why and the who. Which means looking at things with a fresh eye, and maybe revising some of the conditions at the starting point.

Last year was all about testing and recovery, and ensuring the Big C wasn’t trying to put in an appearance. Going to have to stay vigilant on that, but maybe this year is about taking care of all I can (on several levels) so the move can be at the right time for the right reasons. We shall see.


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2 thoughts on “Beginning To Figure Out”

  1. “Balance” seems to be a critical component; very few of us can tolerate “all people all the time” because we need some amount of solitude to decompress, evaluate and redirect. Conversely, there’s a reason Solitary Confinement is such a severe punishment; humans require some sort of emotional feedback system to maintain a solid platform under what’s called “sanity” (or, for some, “reasonable facsimile thereof”).

    Now if that “balance” could be individually determined, quality and quantity standards established, someone with a large address book and mad AI skills might be able to make a few bucks. Until then, however, we’re stuck with the 100K+/- years of human social sloppiness we’ve become accustomed to.


  2. There have been many things I thought I wanted to do in life that never came to pass. In each instance this turned out to be a very good thing.

    Eventually I figured out that when the “right” thing for me came along, the way to it was easy. The hard part was waiting for the right thing 😂

    I hope the same kid true for you.

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